Endless waltz.

Stopped even before starting.

2012-02-13T23:54:00.001+08:00

Somehow, my cauldron of thoughts starts to fail me again. I found solace in just being by myself. At least, i don't have to worry about bringing disappointment to people around. Gone through so much, but i realised, i have not changed much at all. There is still so much about myself i'm unsatisfied about. But no matter how hard i try, it just gets worse every time. So,does working hard always pay..? I guess not. After all, this is reality.

V day arrives.

2012-02-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

Once again, the V day is here. Its been so long now. Some people would be having sour grapes about this day, but i guess, my heart don't even care about it anymore. Anyways, i screwed my paper today, it already dampened my mood for anything else. And lastly, i hate myself for being like that.

Oblivious.

2012-02-10T00:48:00.001+08:00

Somehow i slipped into it. Without myself even knowing.

Update on my life.

2012-02-08T00:31:00.001+08:00

Once again, it feels that i'm on my own. No matter what, where, when. These few days have been happening, pleasant once ones, unpleasant ones.. Just a personal thought after an incident, i think no matter kid or adult, no matter how immature, there is always a limit for everything. Cross the line and its a big no no. Today has been a rather..hectic day, but at least, i get to see eye candy. Tests, exams, revisions everything are rushing in now, having to meet deadlines for assignments made it worse altogether, but i don't seem to feel much of the stress from it. Or is it i chose not to experience anything? Gotten my ITP placing too, flavour house company, i really hope i wont have to see....anyways, that is all for now. Signing off.

生命的同花顺...

2012-02-08T00:24:00.001+08:00

可惜就算梦能成真,有谁猜得准能分到多少福份...

Somehow.

2012-02-07T22:04:00.001+08:00

Once again, its a gold. I wouldn't say that we don't deserve it, but rather i would say, what would happen if the UOPA award didn't exist? It would have been much better isn't it. Seeing the amount of gold units this year i wonder how can it be even called prestigious.

心多執著就加倍心痛..

2012-02-06T23:41:00.001+08:00

历来的放纵, 我再不会变空,捂住了泪了都已再也不回头...

I always ask myself.

2012-02-06T21:51:00.001+08:00

如果结局早已命定, 你还愿意经历这一切吗..?

It will nv be..

2012-02-06T16:21:00.001+08:00

Sometimes its never enough. No matter how much you do, if your intentions aren't reciprocated, nothing happens and you just think that you can't do anything right.

If only..

2012-02-06T01:28:00.001+08:00

Somehow, at this moment, i really missed you..

Its just that difficult sometimes isn't it.

2012-02-04T02:50:00.001+08:00

Well it seems i should really take a step back any time soon. After all, everything have changed.

It goes on.

2012-02-04T02:15:00.001+08:00

Seriously, the issue of this fyp thing, i think it should come to an end. Everyone wants the best for themselves, but it is impossible, there are bound to be people who lose out. whatever the outcome will be, the only way is to not be sore about it and just finish it. Though i'm not involved, but its not comfortable seeing this at all.

Nonchalance..

2012-01-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

Spent the day celebrating vic's birthday and also walking around sentosa and had a sumptuous dinner at marche. When to uniQlo to get another V-necked tee, and guess what, there was a really pleasant surprise. Anyway, looks like what happened on friday definitely made it even clearer to me that there is no point anymore. The kids nowadays, are just this way. Seriously, who wants to do work when you can be the boss. But the reality is the hard truth. You have to work for your reward. There is no point in others saying the same thing over and over again. Only you know whether your conscience is clear and whether you deserve it or not. This corps, has somehow really changed, as the time goes by. When its time to let go, then do what must be done.

CNY eve.

2012-01-23T01:43:00.005+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day. Somehow, there is still this tingling feeling in my heart. When i saw your name lighting up on my phone, i was definitely excited, but at the same time..I don't know how to call it but its definitely a weird feeling. Today has passed by just like that, tomorrow another hectic day. Been listening to JJ lin's 记得 the whole day, It just seems to depict how i feel. Wish you were here now...and somehow, i wished i hadn't known..

让时间说真话,虽然我也害怕..

Maybe..

2012-01-22T10:33:00.002+08:00

A really heavy heart, but i noe somethings just can't be forced isn't it. I just got to hide all this in my heart, for its not fair to let u noe what i'm going through. But what i can say is that i'll be waiting. No matter what.

仰望..

2012-01-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

No matter what. I'll be here. waiting.

我..

2012-01-20T23:44:00.004+08:00

心中是清楚的..

If only..

2012-01-20T23:03:00.002+08:00

If only.. i had the courage. if only i knew how to speak my mind to you. Today has indeed been a really long day. I thought a short walk would be able shut my mind off a bit, but suddenly thoughts of...you just came flashing in. Tomorrow will be the start of a five day break, i wonder how would it be like, would it be the same as the past few times? i get the feeling that it would be. Just me.

I guess, i'm in no place to expect anything isn't it?

Sorting out.

2012-01-19T23:17:00.003+08:00

Straightening out my thoughts, never felt better than this. It seems that all have come into place. Indeed the problems are arising but my time to care is over. with or without me, everything is still the same, i'm not indispensable. No one is. I'm just a mere catalyst for making things happen, its getting quite obvious though. Day by day, the new path, new direction that i want to take is getting clearer and clearer. Procrastination makes me sick, and its time for a change, right now, right here.

Do what is right, and do what must be done.

Issues.

2012-01-18T23:13:00.003+08:00

It sucks having those thoughts. the thought of having to go through a lot of stuff alone, it just hits me hard in the face. 面对着进退两难的局面, 真叫我不能不后悔当初. The wave of thoughts just came suddenly, came crashing down and i've got nothing to hold against it. got to resolve this complicated knot in my heart before i deal damage to people around me and myself. But at least, i'm able to see your words, at least it made me know that i'm going in the right direction.

its really nice to have you here for me, but i'm afraid that i'm a burden.

So what?

2012-01-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

Well sometimes its just that hard isn't it. The fight with yourself, it goes on forever. Anything and everything in your life, it challenges you. Sometimes its just too fast-paced that you would get too focused on the fight and just forget about savoring every moment, and that is where we have regrets. Being someone that you are not, you wont get anything in the end. But then again, so what if we are who we are? Aren't we still trapped in the fight? The ultimate question of whether i'm just doing things just for the sake of being socially acceptable still stands. Efforts are futile in finding that answer as far as i know.

i just can't bear to live this down.

Today.

2012-01-17T10:33:00.002+08:00

Started the day with panda,bloodshot eyes. Regretted staying up to study because nothing went in, as usual. For the whole morning there wasn't anything else pleasant except for the moment when i see you smile~ still a long day to go later, i hope i can survive it. Signing off~

A peaceful day.

2012-01-14T01:23:00.003+08:00

Finally, a break has come for me. It has been a hectic week, and lots of things happened. An especially long day today, i'm glad that i "survived" being in school today. Anyways, really really glad that you're feeling better, yes, i would say no matter what happens, i'm here for you. Tomorrow will be another long day, all the best to me and to everyone tomorrow. ciaos~

Hope you're having a goodnight's sleep, and waking up to a brand new day feeling happy~

What's the point?

2012-01-11T21:38:00.002+08:00

Today started out pleasant, but as usual, good things never last. What is the point of having argument with me? Both of us don't gain anything. Next, its becoming more evident that i can't speak well. Having a conversation with me, i don't know, but i just think i'm really boring people out. I hate feeling that way, it just makes me sink deeper into being withdrawn.

In no time, i'll really collaspe on the inside.

18 years.

2012-01-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hah. So its come to this now isn't it? Well i guess ever since 2008 my life hasn't been, i would say, without major setbacks. I would say, i really regret not resting during the break i have, not refreshing myself during the break. Yes i'm dejected, and theres nothing much i can do about it though. i just got to live this down isn't it? School has just became a place i dread going to. I don't really think much, but with so much to settle, how could i let go of my thoughts? its the same bloody cycle over and over again. Responsibilities, Roles, Expectations. Still the same question, if i'm tired being myself, what do i do?

Can someone tell me..?

If i say, i'm gonna collapse, would anyone pull me up?

It hit hard.

2012-01-09T23:58:00.006+08:00

Yes it did. it really hit me hard. ever since the time i failed two modules, the constant struggle with that pathetic self-degrading thought continues. It has gotten better, but that sentence today really dealt a real heavy blow.

Well, i certainly got no one else to blame but myself isn't it? but what i want to know is, do one mistake warrant for the person to condemned? I'm pretty sure this happened today.

这个遗憾，有好也有坏，好的是我认识了你。坏的，就是我过不了自己那关，还是痛

恨自己当初没有多努力一点...

But well, i know that i just got to undo this knot, if not it will haunt me forever.

Really wanting to see your smile all of a sudden.

Can i?

2012-01-09T13:33:00.001+08:00

The courage to live a true life to yourself. not what others expect of you. is that possible? or will it just be a regret..?

Once again.

2012-01-09T13:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah, as the title says, once again, the feeling is back. FYP for me is being pushed to October. lagging back like never before. Its really discouraging though, but what can i do about it? Pessimism comes and go like an old friend. Theres so much to think about, settle and make decisions about. Would there be anyone willing to support me through this...?

Sometimes, i really wish you were here right beside me. just seeing you smile, im contented already. That is just what i need in order to carry on walking.

A heavy heart.

2012-01-09T00:57:00.002+08:00

I didnt know what came over me and made me told you that,but i'm pretty sure it wasn't just because of a moment of folly. I was actually serious about it, and keeping in my heart this, is probably because my what i thought, "what would i do if you weren't here for me anymore?" i cant help trying to figure out whats on your mind though, but what i'll say is, i just be waiting.

IFS experiment 5!

2011-05-19T00:39:00.001+08:00

Abandoned Bird's Nest

2011-05-18T01:03:00.000+08:00

A bird nest i found at grandpa's house..too bad, its abandoned..

Pouring out my soul..

2011-02-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

i'm so back guys!!!

tis blog is so getting mouldy!

haa lets do some update on sch,

man its really getting boring with exams and stuff,

and i swear i am gonna enjoy my holidaes as much as i can :D

hmm and perhaps i should change my blog skin, agreed?

ah, i would lyk to sae too, just lyk on tumblr,

i tink i'm really too serious at times,

or rather its even affecting the way i tok *sulking >.<*

haha need to open up and LAUGH!!!!

okae i'm really random,

anyways, i get your hint, hehe next year ur desire will be fulfilled XD

and no more dots MUAHAHAHAH!!!!!!

hehe ciaos ppl!!

Reunion Dinner~

2011-02-03T02:29:00.003+08:00

Reunion Dinner, The feeling of warmth lingers...

Fishing again.

2010-12-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

Alrights..
nth much todae..
except..
training in the morning..
hmm wif a tight schedule..
must really buck up on evrything..
and after tat..
LAN wif my bro...
L4D2 still rocks on...
and..
wif the good weather...
and gud tide..
went fishing...
hmm quite lucky and got a few catches..
but wondering if im lucky enuf to get a stingray...
anyways,pics first.

first catch,real small fish..didn't even feel it tugging..

Second catch,a small catfish..

Third Catch,forgot the name of it..

Fourth Catch..a big cat fish...

Shot 2..

Its quite big..and makes a sumptuous dinner..but decided to giv it away..

hmm yea..
and..perhaps..i should stop eating so much these daes...
its making me a little chubby..
too chubby..
and also,i shld cut down on using too many dots dots.
got an advice,
too many dots makes my words sound emo,
so,to be cheerful,guess the i can start by sounding cheerful.
hmm frm next post onwards,
shall not use dot dots.
tats all folks!
ciaos!

Thank you....and i love you...

2010-12-15T22:29:00.002+08:00

well..
perhaps..its really the end...
perhaps u were right..
it was a mistake frm the start...
but nevertheless...
there are still...
lots and lots of beautiful moments wif u...
so beautiful...
i dun tink i'll ever forget them...
they will jus be there...
xie xie ni..
rang wo you na me mei li de hui yi....
and yea...
jus wan to sae...
i love u...
coz i really do...
but now....
me and u noe tat..
we cant work out...
but nevertheless..
xi wang...
ni yi hou hui xing fu....

if we can go back in time...
i nv regret it at all...

Mugging Mugging!!

2010-12-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

well its boring dae...
woke up, had lunch and mug mug mug...
haven got much problems with engineering maths alrdy..
but yea..
struggling a little wif MIP..
materials in practice..
really squeezing brain juices for it..
and yea..
decided to hav fun todae..
by trying to cook baked rice at hm for the first time..
i cooked baked rice b4 during the last time worked...
but not at hm..
and yea..look below.. :)

My home made spicy baked rice:
luncheon meat, shitake mushroom, dried chilli, potato, pot cooked rice..and yea..seasonings and stuff..

well it wasn't really authentic baked rice coz i dun hav the right ingredients..
but it taste jus as great :D...
haha quite glad it turn out alrights actually..
anyways..
after eating baked rice...
i asked my dad to buy me a double mcspicy..
coz i was real hungry..
ar...
guess i nid to work off the fats again..argh....
anyways...
tats all for todae..
ciaos!!!

Updates Updates Updates!!

2010-11-30T23:33:00.003+08:00

Alrights here's an update of my life :)

Being appointed as Camp Coord for NCO camp 2011
MST is coming in less than one week's time!!
Mega Mugging period!!!
I still dunno wad to study for MIP!!!!
and yea..Fancy drill training after MIP...
Look below, see the picture...

yes its tis picture..
okae...
this picture is frm starwars the force unleashed 2 game..
i've tried the force unleashed,
and yea..cant wait to try tis game...
lifes normal..
excpet the rainy season is making it hard for me not to be lazy...
life's getting better..
i've learnt to let go of negative feelings...
and im now working hard for MST.....
going to start getting busy again....
and yea...
training myself up these daes too..
starting to jog and stuff...
to keep fit...
arr...
im bored now...
and yea..end of my post..
going back to mugging now...
ciaos!!

Live life with no regrets...

Fate...

2010-11-27T00:06:00.003+08:00

Is it..
trying to make fun of me?
jus for the sake of it?
so long...
yet it doesn't kills me off..
seriously..
i really cant bear to live tis down...

Can someone jus tell me....

2010-11-25T00:20:00.003+08:00

Can someone jus tell me...
am i..
doing the right thing after all?
seriously....
why do i hav to be dealt wif such a choice....
i'll rather be ditched...
and make a choice lyk tat...

Over due pics..

2010-11-23T23:50:00.001+08:00

Here are some overdue pics...
haven got a proper post for awhile..
so yea...
lets entertain ppl wif some pictures...
but i tink..
nobody comes here anyway...
so nvm...

firstly, here are some pics of the fishes sweetie caught...

A catfish

A clearer shot

A talipia with the catfish

Another shot

Hmm..tis is bbq chicken heart..
hmm taste not much different frm bbq chicken..

I always make my own supper..spicy sausages

baked carrot...taste heavenly..

A slide at the Changi Airport..u hav to get tokens to play it..

Crowded as usual...

full view of slide

Hmm well...
tats the end of this post...
ciaos ppl..

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说....

2010-11-19T22:58:00.003+08:00

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意(心还想着你)
再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择
-伍家辉

For so long...
my heart...have not hurt...
for so long...
till now...
it hurts so badly...
tinkin bout the happy memories wif u....
sad memories wif u...
fun memories wif u...
evry suan tian ku la...
all the times we've been tgt...
im sorry...
i jus wan u back.....

我这輩子...
will always love u...
i jus wan u back...

我好想回到过去。。

2010-11-18T13:30:00.003+08:00

”你想要的我却不能够给你我全部，
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的...“

我好难过。。。
老公很对不起老婆。。。
我真的很难过我原来带给你那么多伤害。。。
我哭了一整晚。。
也一直说对不起。。。
我真的真的。。
好想。。。
什么都不说。。。。
就默默的。。
拥抱着你。。。
我。。。真的很不愿意分开。。。
真的。。。
一分。。
一秒。。。
我的心。。
也随着时间。。。
更沉重。。。
我的心。。
给了你。。。
就在也收不回来了。。。。。。。。。。

Dinner wif family.

2010-11-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

Title saes,
dinner wif family.
todae..
nth much..
jus revising at hm...
and after tat,
went to hav dinner wif family..
here are the pictures :)

Rojak.

Sting ray

Squid

Kai lan

Prawns..12 dollars for liddat...damn expensive...

Deer meat..

My bro's double scoup..

My ice-cream waffle.

yup..
been awhile since i had dinner wif them...
hmm tmrw is sch..hav to prepare for it..
haiz............

Blessing or regrets...

2010-11-13T23:49:00.000+08:00

well..
recently..
lots of stuff happen...
and..
honestly..
im stressed up...
when i wake up in the morning...
the first two things i would tink of...
sweetie..
and another thing..
my GPA of 1.091...
well..
it hit me hard...
totally...
and evrydae...
i get my ass on the chair..
and worked hard...
so tat i can score well for my exams and stuff...
and..
oso..
i chose studies over NPCC..
which anyone wif a sane mind would...
smth jus triggered me into waking up and noeing i couldn't cope anymore...
so yea...
told TOs tat i would not be going back..
and i'll be dropping my rank as a CI...
well..
most likely..
i'll jus be going back to TSS as a senior...
and only until the dae i can get my studies back on track,
then i will reinstate my CI rank...
provided HQ haven kick me out yet...
yea..
now i will jus continue to work hard for studies..
signing off ppl :)

Secret mission :)

2010-11-13T23:46:00.001+08:00

Alrights,
todae,
went out wif sweetie and gek peng..
the gurls dolled up,
and we went to city and window shopped..
and after tat,
had dinner at astons :)
after dinner,
went to esplanade roof terrace...
it rained..
and we used an umbrella for shelter and we chit chatted over there..
took quite a number of pics too...
and after tat,
hm swt hm :)
here are some pics :D

Anyways,
todae..
quite tired..
dunno why..
maybe walk too long ba...
hmm and finished reading two of low kay hwa's books :)..
nice stories...
lots of insights...
anyways...
gonna join sweetie in lalaland now,
so ciaos evryone!

BBQ wif TSSNPCC Peeps

2010-11-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

Alrights,
todae,
chilled at hm the whole morning and afternoon,
and after tat,
during late afternoon,
went over to rui jian's condo's bbq pit,
so yup..
waited for the others to arrive...
and started the charcoal burning...
and yep..
not long after..
BBQ commence :)
so yup..
ate all we can..
chatted and joked...
hmm quite lots of stuff to eat...
even for shishamo fish..
bought by rui jian's mum...
and yea..
bbq shishamo taste even better than fried ones...:)
yep..
so after tat...
we all went for a swim...
had sauna awhile...
washed up,
and hm sweet hm..
here are some pics :)

Alrights,
its been long since i had a BBQ...
and yep..
enjoyed my dae...
yup stay tuned for more blog post..
ciaos ppl!

Replay....

2010-11-03T00:34:00.000+08:00

Nostalgia.....
good or bad...
right or wrong...
i dunno what to believe anymore...

30th oct Halloween wif sweetie :)

2010-10-30T23:26:00.002+08:00

Alrights,
beginning of a wonderful dae :)
first...
met sweetie...
and went to down town east..
and signed up for nebo membership..
so tat we can get a discount for stuff there..
yep..so..
had lunch at popeyes,
and went after tat,
went to wild wild wet wif sweetie :)
lotsa lotsa fun :D...
after tat, we washed up,
had dinner, and queued up for the halloween fair at escape theme park..
around 7pm smth we went in..
and we were greeted by a horde of "ghosts"...
they were dressed up really well and yea u can hear girls shrieking..XD
anyways..
explored the area..
took pictures..
and i even make up and had a bloody face...
and yea..we played the go kart thingy..
and the track was slippery and my go kart skidded..
argh...
but well..
still fun :)..
after tat,
went to a coffeeshop to drink coffee and had toast...
and dad sent both of us hm swt hm :D
here are pictures :)

Yup tats all folks :)
enjoyed halloween wif sweetie tis year :)

ciaos!

Hope u'll get better...

2010-10-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

Seriously..
wadeva i sae...
it does applies...
but yes...
i wish u can feel better now....
wadeva i do jus seems to piss u off...
nvm...
but yea...
the promise i make..i'll keep it..
but..do u noe how much...i wish for u...
to be the u in the past?

Tats you..

2010-10-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, someone comes into your life that changes everything...
They’re able to make you smile, laugh, and allow you to be yourself....
There’s something about them that is unexplainable;
and even though you’re not even with them,
you don’t want to let that person go....

Wad else...can i sae?

2010-10-11T02:30:00.002+08:00

Seriously..
yes...
its my fault..
tat my grades sux to the core...
its my fault...
its always true..
and u dun do well...
u lose all fucking respect.......
but well..
things...hav alrdy come all tis way...
wads done...
is done...
i jus gotta work harder...
im human too..
and...
one mistake...
doesn't mean i get condemned...
seriously...
i dun nid all these insults.............

My thoughts fails me...

2010-10-08T03:08:00.002+08:00

Cut the long story short for ppl..
first things first...
gotten results back...
and..one word..
"screwed"..
well i dun really wan to sae it here...
its enuf alrdy...
for those who are curious...i jus can sae..
its damn bad...
but not bad enuf to get me expelled...
jus use the imagination and u'll noe...
and..honestly...
im moving...
really slowly on the path of my life....
it seems as daes goes by..
im dragging my feet...
instead of walking normally........
literally...
simply...its jus lyk in the past..
when ur results fails u...
u aint getting respect...
u jus get hell lotsa things tat wont be nice...
yea..
this hit hard...
it really came crashing down on me...
i seriously do nid to reconsider the stuff i'm doing..
its really not bout getting all emo...
but jus...
its exhausting at times...
and u do feel lyk jus giving up....
maybe so......
but all these...torment me terribly enuf...
but yet...
not enuf to break me...

I'm walking...
real slowly...
but turning towards my back...
the path is slowly eroding behind me...
is it hinting me to go faster or jus fall when the path is gone?

I Believe...

2010-10-03T02:33:00.008+08:00

Life...
or Death...
is all around us...
and..
it comes and goes.......
just...
for example...
wif every breath we take...
1 child..
would die frm either starvation..
or AIDs..
in third world countries...
how fragile is it..
i tink..
ppl jus noe it......
i believe..
fate is in our own hands..
and we carve out the way that we wan to go......
its difficult..
to really noe wad u wan.......
and u may jus wan to hav a path set nicely for u..
but...
i believe..
wad i wan..
will only be there..
if i myself..
work for it........
i'm jus a mere human being.......
all the words of wisdom..
i dun really noe...
nor i dun noe much of Confucianism..
but simply....
wadeva i dun understand..
i'll jus try to grasp it..
on my own...
being a person who..
lead my childhood...
without a silver spoon.....
and having to defend urself if not u'll end up wif bruises...
and having to fight the things u wan.......
i jus bcome a leader..
a leader of myself.......
and..simply..
"A leader dun hav much frens..."
even..in npcc now...
im a leader...
but...
definition of it?
well..
i'm jus still someone...
who...
do wad..
is right..
and get things done...
and get on wif the job.......
even in other stuff..
im the same...........
ever since young..
i dun really hav much frens..
nor..
understanding..
nor recognition..
frm wad i do..........
but it doesn't matter........
if i am a person born lyk tat......
well..
its been 17 years now......
and..
being naturally strong...
has bcome part and parcel.....
but sometimes..
when u are by urself....
u tend to go attention seeking..
i dun deny...
i do tat at times......
who in the world..
wont wan at least..attention.....
for who and wad u are.....
at least...even a nod of a head frm someone else...
tats attention...
and..
well..i believe...
life hav seasons..........
jus lyk..tis picture below.........

In this world..
there are four seasons...
spring..
summer...
autumn...
winter.....
people do relate them...
to being the 'taste' of life.......
being sour,sweet,bitter, spiciness.....
well..in life....
by the picture above...
there are jus two...
either ups..
or downs...
in other words..
gud..
or bad.........
how well...
life will appear to u...
depends on how receptive u are..
to the gud and bad issues.....
and how u adjust urself...
to handle them.......
tats why.......
i do believe..
fate is in my own hands.....
and...
its up to me...
to make my life hell,
or make my life heaven.......

when something bad happens...
is it really something bad?
and when...
something good happens..
is it really something good?
theres no way..
to really define any absolute gudness nor badness.....
I...
believe...

Heavy..

2010-09-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

caught the movie Resident Evil: Afterlife wif sweetie todae :)..
well...
not feeling too well now..
tightness in the chest...
ever since the afternoon...
yea..and my head is heavy...
wif thoughts...
lots of it...
meh..
can the rain come again and cool me off?

Gosh..im randoming again and again...

2010-09-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

alrites...
todae..
went to collect some stuff wif sweetie..
and after tat,
brought marcko out for a walk at park connector...
and watch a jap drama series wif sweetie..:)
and after tat hm swt hm for me...
simple dae...
hmm well..tis post..jus randoming...
har...jus came across some star wars stuff..
and theres tis game "The Force Unleashed II"...
yea..
cant miss it.....
shld try it when its released...
oh yea..
im kinda lyk a star wars fan...
well not much of it nowadaes...
but jus...
quite interested..
especially the games....
but in the past...
i would watch the movies and stuff..
and sometimes i do spend time reading starwars stories to noe what really happens outside the movies...
cos movies are jus so summarized...
and..yup...
many people would tink its jus boring to see blaster shots, space ships...
or even worse...
two idiots holding a glowing popsicle stick (aka lightsaber) and jus fighting each other?
and ending up wif a broken limb or two?
hmm well..
for me..i guess..tis got to do wif preference..for me..
im not interested bout why they fight...
but im intrigued bout how the crew made the effects and stuff...
lyk..the glow of the saber...
how they made the props..
the computerised effects..
jus lyk avatar...
i must sae the landscape is...
mesmerizing..
the whole setting is jus gorgeous...
yea..but back to the main thing...
hmm well...
my mum intro-ed starwars to me...
really...
and i lyked it ever since...
and not only me...
but billions of ppl all over the world...
and it nv stops even tho the movie saga alrdy ended...
well...yea...
i shall wait for the game of TFU 2...
its a must try....
hehe...
well shall post till here....
nites evryone...

" I am your father..."
"NO!!!!!!!!"
"nah jus joking... :P"

Finally..after so many blue moons...

2010-09-28T02:09:00.004+08:00

how long has it been ever since i last drawn a picture...
hmm lyk months ago...
hmm i rmb..
the very last pic i drew..
was a portrait of sweetie...:)..
and now...
well..kinda suddenly got the feeling to draw...
yea..
started drawing ichigo in getsuga form...
and heres my product..

took the pic wif my pencil..
as a proof of it not being printed..
and also...i removed the conversation box tat is in the manga pic of it..

another view without pencil..

hmm..
quite surprised..
tat my skills nv deteriorate at all..
let me show the real pic of it...

tis is the manga pic of it..

well of coz there are slight differences..
and..
i put some of my style into it...
but nevertheless..
of coz its still the original artist who is bravo..
mine is jus a fan art...
yea..its jus an appreciation to the character..
hmm alright..
my next drawing...maybe it would be inuyasha..
haven tried drawing him before but i tink it would be nice...:)
so yea..
stay tuned..
ciaos and nites..

"Every one is a moon,
and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody.."

Rain, Rain, Rain...

2010-09-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

meh..
these daes...
dark clouds brewing everydae...
and its getting cold...
and tiny little rain drops starts falling...
looks lyk the monsoon season is coming..
it means...
more indoors...-_-"...
and well..so...bout todae...
spent the morning wif sweetie...
and in the afternoon...
smth screwed up...
really sry sweetie...
and yea...
after tat...
went..
for a walk...
at buona vista and ulu pandan park connector....
in the rain...
hmm ulu pandan park connector...
really ULU....
hmm i was the one guy walking over there...
wif 1 or 2 more cyclists...
and they come and go...
so practically..
there was not a soul there except me....
yea...
well...as said..its raining...
and i got drenched even tho i had an umbrella...
shld get a bigger one next time..
or maybe..
wear a poncho?O.o
hmm...
well..
nv visit the ulu pandan park connector for quite some time alrdy...
and yea..
still as quiet...
went up to the abandoned train track in the past b4...
but yea..todae its slippery and i dun wan to risk dropping into the canal...
tats mad...
anyways..
after my stroll in the rain...
rain stopped...
and i started to jog....
and jog all the way back to meet sweetie for dinner...
and i took 35 min to reach her area..
heh...
roughly...
4.7 km?
my stamina still there eh?
slow jog all the way..
shld try paced jogging and see how it goes...
haven got a chance to test out my track shoes yet...
maybe on wed...
anyways..
so yea...met up wif sweetie...
and we went to hav pizza hut for dinner :)...
and after tat,
home sweet home..
alrights..
below..
pictures...
har...
real long since i shown pictures on my blog...
enjoy...

the abandoned train track...

jus trees, the road, and me...

trees, rain, drenched...

my tired pair of legs..

another abandoned train track up ahead..

came here before on my bike...

slippery...O.o

seh lea..danger area...
and true enuf..
i didn't stayed here long..jus took pics and off i go...
altho a malay uncle did do some stunts..
lyk pushing his bike thru..
and the whole metal thing was lyk shaking...O.O

my buddy...
earthfy the earthworm...
saved him frm an iguana who tried to chew him up...

alrights...
shall show more pics next time...
har....
its 11pm smth now..
and clouds are brewing again...
well..
jus wait for the rain drops to..
"patter...patter..patter" on my shoulders...
hmm..alrights........
shall post till here...
next time ppl..
ciaos...

Let the rain kiss you...
Let the rain beat upon your head with silver liquid drops...
Let the rain sing you a lullaby...

I love u sweetie....

Out wif sweetie :)

2010-09-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

Alrights..
todae..
went out wif sweetie to city :)..
hmm started walking down the stretch of orchard,
and took a bus to suntec, and walked around there..
super duper inconvenient due to the F1...
but anyways...
after tat...
planned to catch a movie but the timings are all weird weird de..
so yup..we jus had a lovely dinner tgt :)...
and had yummy choc ice cream..
:D..
after tat,
home swt home..:)

hmm and...
it keeps raining these daes.......
shucks...
although i lyk the rain..
but its causing inconvenience...
anyways..
ciaos!!

Clouds come floating into my life,
no longer to carry rain or usher storm,
but to add color to my sunset sky....

Contradiction...

2010-09-15T23:57:00.001+08:00

aha.
i resurfaced the dark walls of my blog..
well..
life..
goes on..
jus these daes..
exams..
and sorts...
honestly...
i screwed up..my exams...
its feels...
real sucky...
real...
sucky.............
i made sacrifices...
lotsa sacrifices......
i gave up the chance...
to go for HRC and WCJ course...
jus for the balance of stuff on my hand...
i sacrificed...
NPAP selection...
Being CII for CIBTC D10...
coz...there are indeed more important stuff for me to care bout...
lyk..how to get my shit crap studies back in shape...
etc...
sacrifices...shld be painful...
unwilling..
dreaded...
yet..
i feel fine...
i feel..
free..
i may be a leader in NP..
but yet...tis...wont be balanced...given my sucky studies...
how far can i go in np?
no one noes..
i dunno too...
rather..i choose not to noe...
but..i choose..
to noe how far i can go in studies...
in order to fufil my aim...
of getting a career.............
i dunno...i feel happy..
or sad now...
after making the sacrifices...
but i do noe...
my path...
seems to become steeper...
and its taking a toll on me..........
wad lies...
beyond this............................................?

"Looking in the mirror...
what do u see..?"

Cherish evry moment...

2010-09-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

It is only when things are gone and lost,
then we start searching for it..
and realising that how important it is to us....

Screwed...

2010-09-06T23:03:00.001+08:00

Fuck my life..
first paper screwed...
going mug lyk mad for my other papers...
and honestly..
feeling depressed again..
i dunno why...

...

2010-09-01T01:51:00.000+08:00

Im really depressed now...
can i jus be understood?:(

its painful...

2010-08-30T08:30:00.002+08:00

wo de tong..

shui hui ming bai..

wo de gan shou..

shui hui guan...

hao tong..

hao tong...

Reflection...

2010-08-30T01:06:00.004+08:00

alrights..
my previous post...
honestly...
i only realised i written all tat...
after i cooled down....
lots of stuff happening..
not only np...
well..
im not going to delete the post..
but im going to look at it and reflect my life upon it...
i dunno whether to cry or wad...
coz..i dunno how to..
but i can only stare blankly at the com...
trying to make myself slpy...
yea...
sry if it disturbs any of my blog readers...
i was really out of my mind when i written it...
but...the more i read it...
the more sad..
and cold it feels...
i wan to ask..if there is really god..(although i dun believe)..
yea..
i jus wanna ask...
can i jus hav someone...
by my side...
i jus want my little wishes and requests to be fulfilled...
a simple but happy life...
tats all i want...
will u...
jus giv it to me?
and at the same time...
mould my heart back...
coz...
its alrdy tiny little grains...
and...
probably..im too stupid to put it back tgt..
or..did u jus cursed my life..
so that i dun enjoy happiness for long?
i wan to noe why...
i jus wan...
my love...
my happiness...
my little wish of jus..
having a happy life....
gei wo..hao ma?
wo hao lei..
hao lei...

Aren't i jus a puppet...

2010-08-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

My post title...
its not my fault...
i did nth wrong...
but why does tis hav to happen?
its killin me...
i can't accept it...
but hav i got any choice...
i dun hav right?
aren't i jus a puppet?
a little puppet..that has no sae...
and ppl jus play wif me...
until my string breaks...
in np too..
in my life too....
i tried hard..
for 17 yrs to be cheerful...
but...
i'm still a puppet...
i'm not going for cibtc anymore...
its no more...
npcc..
thanks for making me a busy man and therefore screwing my life :)..
giving me troubles...
and taking away my time for commitment towards...
ever since sec 1 to 4...
even poly year 1...
where i can spend my time playin dota...wif my frens..
jus lyk any other teens...
but rotting in u my cca?
are u serious?
i really wan to sae the four letter word to u my cca...
but yea...
its uselss tho..
seriously..i had enuf..
im jus a puppet...
my tears..who cares bout my tears...
who cares bout wad i tinks...
when ppl jus care bout their own....
my heart...who will piece it back for me....
who will tape it back for me....?
even if i crumble...
who cares?
who does?
sitting down here...
my tears get choked up...
neither angry...
nor sad...
at anyone or anything...
but jus angry at myself...
jian guo gui..
for four times...
hai bu pa hei ma?
but..
in my life...
and darkness..
is alrdy creeping into my mind...
i didn't even hav time to be scared..
im not tired...
im exhausted...
i dunno wad to do....
wo..hao pa...
hao pa...
really scared...
but...do ppl care?
no one..is even standing here by my side now when im writing tis...
fuck you chia kok siong...
u're a noob...
to hav ur life screwed up sucker...
i dun even noe wad i am feeling now but do anyone cares?
wad can i do but pray?
to unscrew my life.......
all the little things i ask for......
do they come true?
no...
even though i work hard for it...
so..
therefore...
im so fucked....
dun u ppl agree?

"seriously you're a failure....
no one loves u...
becoming quite saddist eh u sucker?
blame it on urself then..."

Nostalgia...

2010-08-29T17:23:00.010+08:00

I'm..exhausted..
really exhausted...
nostalgia engulfs me...
it seems to be the same again...
so long...
shoulders heavy...
after tis last run...
its the finishing line for me...
its not my career...
nor my life...
finally enlightened...
tis chance for me to move on...
i'll take it...
i wont accept more doubts of me anymore...
and i'll gladly run pass the finishing line as soon as i can...
and on a brighter note...
listened to the song below quite a few times...
"love the way you lie" ft rihanna..
the song's quite catchy and wont really grow sick of listening to it tho...
but tats in my opinion..
yup watch the MV if u want.

and..heres another vid..
inspirational...
i really admire him...
his spirit..is jus somehing lyk...
"even if the world crumbles..
i am still me..and i stand strong..."
click below ans watch it if u all want...

Up and down...
tis feeling...
churning in me..tis few daes...
tried meditating...
helps a little...
tinkin..of drawing again...
to expel those feelings...
but at the same time..
thinkin of studyin...
which i shld...
so...
i'll study first...
sayonara...

"nostalgia fills the heart once again.."

Series of events...

2010-08-25T23:58:00.001+08:00

wednesdae is the dae todae..
so yup..
well shall tok abit bout...
maybe..
first..
bout todae...
yea..
in the morning..
companied sweetie...
and after tat,
went to Tiong to hav a walk and i had lunch there..
around 6pm..
made our way to Kov...
sweetie went to fetch gurl gurl..
while..
as usual..
i went walking around...
hmm didn't realise i go so little amount of money left...
so...
after having dinner..
still felt hungry...
but sadly...
i could only watch the tasty carrot cake...
being eaten by others..
yea..
so..
after tat..
met up wif sweetie...
sent her hm..
and home swt home myself too...
pan fried some meat and also made toast...
yep...
a filling supper indeed...
yup...
and tats all for todae...
and...
well now..
for some update of my life...
alrights...
I decided to go be a CII for D10 CIBTC...
well..
for J10...
i got a chance...
but i rejected it...
due to studies...
and now..
i've got the chance again...
i dunno why..
dunno how...
but..
i do feel honoured...
:)...
hmm..for tis time round...
i decided to go for it...
coz...
after tis..
next year...
i may not be going to continue my CI career...
yup...CII...
after learning bout it...
indeed i feel fear....
its not easy...
at all...
i must sae...
i nid to really hone my hard and soft skills...
till its enuf to be considered instructor level...
but...
well..
if i'm recommended...
tat means i shld be able to do it..:)..
i noe i will hav never-ending support frm sweetie...
so i'll do my best to take up the challenge :)...
hmm..
anyways...
for studies wise...
exams are coming...
and...
also spending time mugging.....
yup..
leading quite a busy life now....
so...yup...
shall post till here...
gotta catch some slp...
but..b4 tat...
hee...
changed my blog song :)...
request frm sweetie :)...
tis song really brings back memories...
swt as ever....:)
ciaos!

"fate...is in my own hands..."

Crap..

2010-08-24T23:45:00.002+08:00

hmm okae..
nth much to sae...
but jus...
for the pervert who tried to disturb sweetie..
i fucking noe who u are...
i dun care u got black magic or wad...
u hurt her..
and u pay dearly...
trust me...
u will...
I'll be watching u.....
u alrdy gotten a bleeding head frm me some yrs ago...
if u wan to try again...
i'll gladly do so...
so dun try me....
i mean it..
dun..............

Study dae :)

2010-08-23T23:26:00.007+08:00

Im back earthlings..
alrights....
todae...
hmm went to sch...
to study wif nic and sweetie...
nic reteach and revise wif me IO chem frm chapters 6-12...
while sweetie did her assignment..
yuen kai and yu run join us soon too...
but not long after..
went for lunch...
chit chatted at FC 4 and laughed at some jokes...
after tat,
sweetie and i made our way to city to hav a walk..
around 6pm smth...
sweetie went to hav dinner wif her officers and colleagues..
while i walked around city..
had my dinner..
after tat...
sent sweetie hm and..
hm sweet hm too :)
yup and here are some pictures..

Well..all of these seems new to me..
although i've seen them b4...
but yea...
after exams..
shall enjoy my time wif sweetie...
b4 a series of events come flooding in...
hmm tats all..
sayonara earthlings :)

Inner peace...

2010-07-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

hmm...
i've walked..
for 17 years on tis world...
seen many stuff...
did many stuff....
stuff tat im really proud off..
stuff tat i regretted...
stuff tat i really love...
stuff tat i hate....
theres one period of my life..
where it has been the darkest too....
and i wasn't able to find inner peace wif myself...
felt lyk there were obstacles evrydae...
but...
one person made me change...
now..
i've found inner peace..
wif all my regrets..
my hate...
etc....
and life really dun seem so screwed anymore...
theres so much to live for and be happy for...
wei he..yao zhi zhuo yu guo qu ne??
i really understood alot nowadaes...
really...

A Saturdae :)

2010-07-25T02:18:00.005+08:00

Alrights...
i cant slp...
missing sweetie very badly..>.<
so..
yup..heres a blog post :)..
hmm lets start wif...
going out wif des...to queensway SC...
and bought my nalgene bottle cap replacement..
and a bottle case..
and after tat, headed down to vivo city where des bought his ziplock bag...
needed for camp...
after tat, cindy came to meet us,wif her fren too..
so.. walked around..
and after tat, sat at the root top of vivo..
and chat...
arnd 6pm plus..
took a bus.. and i went to fish..:)...
by myself first..
yea... must sae..
really gudluck todae...
caught quite a number of fishes...
a few small catfishes...
a few of common sea fish...
and guess wad...
i caught something..
big and heavy...
the last time i caught smth liddat...
was 4 years ago....
really made my dae wif tis catch...XD its a sting ray...
the whole process..
was indeed very tiring...
at first... i didnt notice much...
until the time where my whole rod start to move up and nearly swing into the sea...
(i wasnt holding it..)
and..
grabbed it as fast as i can..
and pulled it in..
i didn't knew wad it was then..
i jus knew it was damn heavy......
a grouper maybe? so..
continued pulling it...
for lyk... 20 minutes...
yea..and it broke my reeler...
the mechanism spoiled... power...
and.. after 20 min..
managed to slide it up shore....
and omg... the sting ray... even bigger than my lap top screen by one times....
and it weighs about 9-10kg...
imagine pulling that thing....
i was totally exhausted after pulling it up..
and i can only stare at it and take pictures....XD
yea... so...
a group of malay anglers were lyk..
OMG...
freaking huge sting ray...
yea its huge..
can feed a family of four for 2-3 days...
and they lended me a knife to cut off its tail...
hmm my mum didnt want it.. so...
gave it to the malay anglers...
i tink they must be real happy...
fresh sting ray to be made into curry sting ray..
yummy..
too bad my mum didn't wan it...
so nvm..
after tat, my bro came to join me...
and yea.. caught a few more fishes again...XD...
really lucky todae :)...
yep..so..
heres some pics of my catch todae :D

cat fish

the 10 kg sting ray..

look at the size of it...

yup...
im really lucky todae..

nv had tis luck b4.....
yea...
quite happy...
but...
wifout sweetie by my side...
it feels lonely and empty...
i really hope u'll come back soon...
im waiting for u.....
i can't wait to see u again.....>.<...
love ya...
hope u are doing fine in ATC :)...
jia yous :)...
hmm..and...
hope u are slping soundly now alrdy....
nites nites sweetie...
swt drms and slp tight...
love ya lots....

I miss ya...

2010-07-24T12:41:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
well..ytd...
went to sch...
after sch..
send sweetie to her sch...
as she is having ATC..
after tat, went for unit training...
quite okae i guess..
after tat, went for meeting wif other instructors..
discussed bout campfire and stuff...
after tat, home sweet home..
and..
really missing sweetie now...
alot alot....

Who will ever understand?

2010-07-21T00:03:00.004+08:00

Hmm..
looking back at my old blog posts...
and seeing how i used to complain and stuff...
bout NPCC...
its all crap......
hmm..
i've finally seen reality for it...
really reality...
ever since becoming an NCO when i was still a cadet...
i alrdy...
had a sense of duty so strong in me...
but...
nevertheless...
i was never fully able to speak up..
partially coz...
i dun wan to hurt the harmony..
but now...
as a CI alrdy..
being in unit..
and in HQ...
and back to unit..
sure giv u a different insight...
nevertheless...
when even CI leveled personnel comes tgt at HQ lvl...
regardless wad batch u are...
its lyk..
well..
standard..is smth..
tat shldn't be compromised...
well..
as a CI frm a batch b4 now,
well..
i did giv a warning...
a remark...
but...
didnt follow...
so...
resort to scolding.......
so now..is it considered wrong?
its lyk hello?
u are doing smth tat if cadets themselves do it...
u will scold the hell out of them...
and plus..
theres public watching our behaviour...
in the past..when i jus graduated as a P/CI...
got scolded as well when i went to HQ...
its jus simple as tat...
u dun keep urself in check..
ppl are going to check u...yep...
nevertheless.......
its quite..
pointless actually.................
since..fellow CI comment or CII scold...
dun listen..feel bui song...
fair enuf...
lets wait till the FIs voice out then...
gud luck ppl frm recent batch...
i am jus a CI who wans to be in tip top condition...
and jus do my stuff..
and enjoy my volunteery work :)...
without even the need of ppl opening their mouth to reprimand me :)...
yep..and on a happier note...
I...
dun care...
wad negative comments ppl i alrdy been working wif for so long hav for me...
if in the first place...
i go to HQ...
an unfamiliar place...
wif new ppl to work wif...
higher rank ppl to work wif...
and i nv got trouble working wif my colleagues,
my cadets,
nor even a single negative comment behind my back except for pointers and remarks during debrief that is made right in my face so that i can improve...
or explain why i did wad i did...
and being able to lead while learning...
i dun see why commenting behind my back for ppl whom i noe...
is so nice..
somemore..i've to hear it frm my brother some time ago...
and saw a post on someone's blog...
which made me hav a thought bout it...
seriously...
ZI JI DE XING WEI MEI YOU CUO, JIU BU YONG PA BIE REN SHUO NI/MA NI...
:)...
all the things i do..i noe it benefitted...
its not lyk i purposely go find trouble :)...
ya noe..
im feeling..
not sad at all..
not a little bit...
at least by my side...
i noe i got someone who will listen and judge...
and comment right in my face when the need arises..
and she'll nv comment behind me :)..
tats u sweetie :)...
tis whole matter..
such a simple thing..
even when my bro question me bout it...
after explaining my point to him..
he can get it too..
he understand why i scold..even if me and the ppl i scolded are of same lvl...
so...
for those who dun...
i dun care...
i dun bother :)...
i'll jus continue to be a HAPPY bf to sweetie :)
a HAPPY CI :)
a HAPPY son to my family :)
a HAPPY brother to dj :)
a HAPPY fren to all my frens who UNDERSTAND me even if i dun nid to open my mouth and explain for my actions :)..
coz they will noe why i do it :)..
so...
whoever wans to comment bout me..
ur mouth..is urs...
im professional..
so wad if i scold u..and i may need to work wif u in future...
IM PROFFESSIONAL IN BEING A CI...
i can dun mix my feelings wif work and i can do a zai job even if i did scold u b4...
so..
if u cant,
who is the one wif the problem now? :)
tats all world :)...
SAYONARA!! :D..
yep..b4 i go slp...
sweetie i love u :)
<3>

TSSNPCC POP 2010, Fishing and stuff :)

2010-07-17T22:56:00.001+08:00

meh...
so long nv post liaos...XD
ello evryone :)...
ello sweetie!!! :D
haha alrights..
so..
lets start in sequence...
on fridae:
POP for the current badge of sec 4s.. :)
haha yep thks for all the hard work u all put in for the unit...
really made us proud :)..
yep..
and...also to juniors..continue to put in ur effort and be a gud enthu cadet :)..
haha learnt not to be long winded alrdy...
lyk to be short and swt nowadaes..
yep..so now...
for saturdae...
hmm companied sweetie to changi jetty as she is having recee...
so yea..had breakfast b4 making our way there...
hard some cropped up due to the rain....
yep but fine after the rain stopped...
so..
sweetie went for her recee while i stayed on mainland and fished at changi beach park :)
hmm..
caught a crab, and two small fishes(the fishes were cooked due to the sun..)..
only the crab stayed alive..XD..
heres a pic of the crab :)

Its quite small..

Pic 2

anyways..im kinda sun-baked too...:D..
very tan now..XD
hehe...
so yea...
took bus no.2 and went to bugis...
had dinner and home sweet home for the both of us :)..
hmm...
quite tired...
but yea...
nice dae :)...
sweetie...
hope u feel better now :D..muacks...
hmm oh yea...
changed my blog song :)...
well..
singer is tae yang..
for his previous album...
lyk wedding dress and where u at alot...
and now...his new song..
"I need a Girl"...
yep..hope u all lyk it :)..
listen to the full song if possible ba..
alrights..
shld go slp now..
ciaos ppl!!! :D
ciaos sweetie <3

SYFOC 2010 a success!!!!

2010-07-17T22:45:00.001+08:00

alrights..
hmm tis post...
hmm is for recently ended SYFOC 2010 :)...
alrights..
its my first time, as a CI, taking part in a HQ level parade...
hmm must sae..
its quite and eye opener for me...:)..
hmm learnt many many new things...
and improved myself even more...
throughout the whole event...
and also made me realise alot of stuff :)...
sweetie will noe wad i mean :)...yea...
but well..
shldn't get emo..
haha heres food for the eyes :D..
enjoy :D!!

Alrights tats all :)..
cya again ppl :)

Wondering....

2010-07-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

I wan..things...
to turn out the way i wan...
i dun hav much to ask for...
jus a simple life...
which i can enjoy.........
i jus..wan it.....

Let me know...

2010-06-26T18:45:00.002+08:00

I can’t read your mind...
I need you to say it...
Plain and simple...
I would give my life to you...
Everything you needed..
Baby I would be it..
You’re the only one I talk to..
Who really knows me..
Tells me shows me..
That it’s enough sometimes just to be myself...
I don’t want nobody else..
They don’t understand..
That I gave away my heart..
The moment that I shook your hand...

- Let me know by NLT..

tis post..i hope..u read it...
i hv..no one else...
but u alrdy.............

why..?

2010-06-26T12:28:00.001+08:00

dao di...
wo ying zuo shen me!!!
can anyone tell me...
wad to do...
so tat things wont turn out tis way?

Down...Down...Down....

2010-06-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

i feel lyk...
as tho....
im jus..
plunging down...
down...
down....
a cliff...
i wan to find my way back up...
but...
im to tired..
to move an inch...
can anyone pull me up....?

2010-06-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hey world!
another post frm me again :)...
alrights..
so..shall tok bout some recent happenings...
hmm well now's holidaes..
but..wif the amount of work piling up..
i dun tink it is anymore...
and yea...
went for SYF trainings...
trained the GOH boys..
well theres still room for lots of improvement...
guys..show the best on actual dae..:)...
yea..
as for me..
im a trainer...
and well..
most probably...
my post would be a GOH boys reserve CC...
coz well..
im jus a newbie...
yep..still..i tink its alrdy very gud tat i hav tis key appointment..
shld let the more experienced seniors show face :)..
theres always chance for me...
anyways..
doing my work nowadaes...
and on sundae...
went to grandpa's house...
and after tat,
went out wif family..
to the IR at city....
took some pics..
enjoy!! :D

hmm wad shld i sae...
well the place is really big...
i mean..
real big...
but..
due to constructions and stuff...
its dusty around there...
and wif my sensitive nose...
i kept sneezing...
argh...
yep...tats for ytd...
for todae..
help sweetie passed the SPCA stuff to her classmates..
as she's not feeling well and cant go for cip todae...
so yea..
after tat..
went to pei her...
yep...
sweetie..
take care uh!!! :D..
sayang sayang..
and really thks for all the stuff u've done for me :)
i-love-you...
and yep...
as for me...
i would hav to jia yous on my work...
and also...
for SYF...
hmm going draw no.1 uni tis thurs...
hmm the daes to SYF drawing nearer...
gotta jia yous alot alot...
hmm well..
i guess its time to go catch some rest...
gng sch tmrw to do EM1 PBL project...
woahs...
work and work and work...
JIA YOUS CHIA KOK SIONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and JIA YOUS TOO SWEETIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
alrights...
tats all for todae...
gudnite world! :)
ciaos...

Even if the end of the world is near...
as long as u are by my side...
theres nth i would fear...

Because you want to keep an air of calm and cool..

2010-06-13T15:52:00.004+08:00

hmm yep its me again..
well let me jus sae bout things recently...
well..
theres SYF...
getting more busy in it...
and yea..
MST ended...
hope i can get gud grades for it tho...
now's holidaes...
but it doesnt seem so at all..
wif reports and projects coming my way....
hmm..
well...
i started a tumblr account...
hmm not bad...
heres the address : http://etched-in-mymind.tumblr.com/
and now for blogger...i've updated my blogskin too...
hmm nowdaes...
having a very bad headache...
and its getting on my nerves...
must sae...
things arent going quite well me...
well...
guess its time to do smth to make it rite...
im tired...
im really tired...

Sometimes things tat are insignificant to others...
means alot to me...

Im back...:)

2010-06-07T21:44:00.005+08:00

Its been real long since i blogged..
so yea..heres a blog post..
on recent stuff..
yep..had my birthdae celebration some time ago..
really really nice :)...
and thks for the wishes evryone..:)..
and especially sweetie :)...
love ya...
and...
well...
things are pretty normal..
except tat now..
missing a few SYF trainings...
and yea..
MST week...
gotta study hard..
also...
signed up for parade commander post in SYFOC 2010...
well...
hope i can get the place...
hmm well...
for entertainment side..
watched Prince of Persia wif sweetie...
really really nice movie..
recommend u all to watch it :)...
other than tat...
here are some pics :)...
below is me in specs...
haha sweetie saes i look more mature looking..
coz got a few ppl sae i got kid look...

haha and here...
are pictures of gold fishes in competition...
a photo taking competition...

yep..
so...
nth muxh to blog ler...
so..
gotta go and mug now...
gud nite world!!!
ciaos!!

When will the rain stop...?

The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible...

2010-05-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

Even if things aren't reaching their hands out to u the way they shld...
i will...
im..
always here..
for u..
jia yous!! :)
and..perhaps i dun understand wads happening..
but i do believe..
theres a will..
theres a way...

Sch, SYFOC Training,and terribly missing sweetie..

2010-05-21T23:44:00.004+08:00

okae..
title saes all again :)..
jus an elaboration here..
so yup..
went to sch and had lessons as usual..
"usual" meaning playing games on com during RWP... :X..
seriously..
at least tis can keep me awake..
and at least now in my head i still got knowledge of todae's lesson..
after tat came EM1(engineering math 1)...
and revised how to use mathcad...
seriously its one kickass lesson..
the software is use..
"shiok" to use...
real confusing..
anyways..
mr lau...
my class's EM1 teacher,
still as funny as ever...
my class met him halfway while walking to class..
we saw him and guess wad he did?
hide behind pillar and play hide and seek when we called out to him!! XD
wah..
cutest teacher ever...
and we all call him sch boy...
then he would sae.."im an old sch boy..still kid at heart"
and he would always be smiling...
piang...
love tis cher...
so yup..
after sch went home to change into working order...
and made my way to HTA...
and bought lunch of mac to HTA and ate at the cafeteria...
changed into full u...
had briefing...
and proceeded wif training...
was appointed to train GOH boys wif few other CIs..
and yep...
brushed up their static drills and marching too...
and kinda gave them a morale boost..
getting better i must sae...
jia yous gentlemen..
:)..
heh..
but indeed..
i tink..i'll rather drill than be a drill instructor..
shouting commands..
is far more tired than doing drills..
by the end of training..
colleagues and i were lyk...
"finally rest come liao eh....shioks..."
yep..
but well..
quite nice to be there training ppl...
and at the same time..
learn more things..
hmm after tat...
went for dinner wif few of them...
and home sweet home...
:)..
yep..
and...
sweetie's away @ camp...
miss ya sweetie!! :)
cant wait to see u...:D
and jia yous!!
love ya!
yep..
and now..
for recent happenings in sch as well...
i'll use pictures..:)
very long nv put pics alrdy..XD
so yea..enjoy..

okae note tat mostly..
or rather all pics..
we're in our lab coats..
yea..
all taken during practical..

and yea..
MST coming..
can feel the stress there..
coz..
i must admit..
im still quite ignorant...
grrr..
nid to master evry subject as fast as i can...
jia yous..
hmm yea..
well..
guess i'll post till here...
gudnite world!
CIAOS..

missing u...
evry moment...
sitting by the window side...
looking at the sky...
and wondering...
how are u now.....
and wishing u were by my side....

Short Update!!! :D

2010-05-13T08:55:00.003+08:00

alrights world..
im back yea.. :)
in Engineering math class now and posting..
coz seriously bored out alrdy...
yea and very tired in class...
dunno why but tis week is damn tiring for me...
well nevertheless...
evrydae..
looking forward to meeting sweetie at the end of sch...
yep..she always brightens my dae wif a sweet smile :)...
yep..ytd..
after sch,
went for movie wif sweetie at vivo :)..
watch shutter island..
hmm..
the movie..
very sadistic...
yep..
some of the happenings in it..quite unexpected...
and gross..
and yep...
going for SYF training on fridae...
well..
hope i can achieve my goal/wish...
tat is..
either be a parade commander..
or at least a NPCC GOH contingent commander...
yup..its a rare chance..
must catch hold of it..
:)..
anyways..
sch's real busy lately..
workload is increasing..
exams coming...
but yea...
meditating awhile and clearing my mind does helps.. :)..
and wif sweetie...
yep..
sure hav the strength to go on :)..
yep..anyways..
gonna continue to study..
bye!!
may post ltrs...
or not...
so yep..
hav a nice dae!!
ciaos!!

wad lies behind the clear blue horizon....

A not too bad mondae and Aikido First training :)

2010-05-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

Lessons in sch frm 8am to 11am..:)..
after tat,
went for lunch at mac...
and yep..
and we went to play basketball..
but yea..
didn't play much...
was worried bout sweetie..
yep..
but yea..shes okae now :)...
and so..
after basketball...
went to FC5...
where we bought drinks and slacked...
yep..
i did some work..
and edit the project proposal a little wif nic and yan kang...
and discussed wad is to be done next...
after awhile,
a few of them left..
and yep..
played dota using yan kang's laptop..
rofl..
tui bu liaos...
>.<...
nvm..
studies gud can liaos..
dota anytime oso can train back de..
fan zheng oso no one will play wif me..XD
anyways..
after tat..
went for my CCA aikido...
yep..
paid and gotten my uniform..
going to get my weapon set next week..
consist of a wooden dagger,
sword and a wooden rod..
for my weapon training...
yep..
so...
it was real fun...
although..
here pain there pain..but worth it..
coz the instructors and sensei were very patient in teaching...
yep..
enjoyed my first training..:)..
learned how to fend off someone holding a knife..
and also learn how to fall down correctly..
tats the basics..:)..
yep..looking forward to next training..
and yep..
after tat..
had dinner..
and went back hm..
to chat wif sweetie..
miss ya evrydae :)..
and also did my hw...
lol quite alot...
but yea..
still can finish..:)...
anyways..
here are pics.. :)
firstly..tis spaghetti below...
i explain below the pic..

well i bought tis at one of the western cuisine stall at a coffeeshop at clementi..
yep..its seafood combo pasta...
coz 8.90 and look at the portion of it..
i must sae..
i really feel full..real full...after eating it..
has mussels,prawn,squid and clams in it...
nice sauce too :)..
yep and the shop sell alot of other western food too tat looks really nice :)..
can try them some time..

yep tis is my aikidogi (meaning aikido uniform)
yep..
and on top of it is my white belt (kyu belt)
yea im still a noob...
haha noe its gonna get tougher..
but also going to get more interesting..:)

anyways..
sweetie..
hope u feel better..
hubby always zhi chi ni :)..
ily..
jia yous in anything u do :)..
i noe u can :)
yep..
and so..
tats all for the dae :)..
nites world!!!

"Calm the spirit and return to the source. "

TGIF and Movie wif sweetie :)!!

2010-05-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

alrights..
jus a short update..
so todae...
had lessons in sch as per normal..
and yep..
RWP lesson..
was quite distracted...
and Em1 lesson..
was chatting wif sweetie and doing math questions using the software mathcad..
yep..
and after sch..
went back hm awhile..
and back to sch again...
to fetch sweetie :)..
and yep..
played badminton awhile wif my classmates..
and after tat..
met up wif sweetie..:)..
and...we went for movie in town!! :D
long time nv watch a movie wif sweetie ler..
yep...
so...
watched the movie Ip man 2...
touching...and nice...and damn funny as well!XD
yep and i...
recommended u all to watch...:)

anyways...
after the movie..
we went for dinner at plaza sing..
and after tat,home swt home for the both of us...
and sweetie...
hope u get well soon!!!!!!!!:D
muacks..

"if there is really true love in the world..
ours would be one of the examples.."

i love u sweetie :)..

Normal wednesdae...

2010-05-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

alrights..
went to sch...
lessons as usual..
after tat...
supposed to wait for CCA..
but yea..
cancelled meeting..
so yea..
went to chinese garden..
to reflect..and clear my mind...
and in did..
it works...
:)...
and i shld sae...
walking in chinese garden in the evening..with a light breeze...
its really soothing...
yep..
and lyk i said to u sweetie...
it feels odd tat we not walking there tgt hand in hand...
haha next time hope u'll be there to walk with me too :)...
and yep..
after tat..
went hm...
revised physics...
took quite long to get it...
cheem...
and yea...
after tat...
chatted wif sweetie on phone..
and yea..now..
typing tis blog post b4 i slp..:)...
so yea..
jus a short update..
gudnites world!!
and gudnites sweetie..
sweetest drms to u...
:)..

"Approach evrything with a smile...
and things will smile back at u..."
:)...ily..

Saturdae...:)

2010-05-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

alrights...
so..
tdae...
woke up early in the morning...
prepared..
and went to west coast park mac...
to hav meeting wif mr ouyeong and other fellow CIs and des..
yep..
so...
drafted out wads the plan in future to come...
hope there isn't going to be much changes...
so yea..
anyways...
after tat...
my back..started to hurt again...
and i went back hm...
to rest...
lied down on the bed for quite long...
yep...
quite painful tho...
but yea...
nevertheless..
feeling better now alrdy...
and yea...
so..had macdonald's mcspicy for lunch...
after tat...
went to changi airport..
to find sweetie..
as she's working there...
helping out in an airport event...
yep..
so brought my laptop there..
went to mac...
ordered nuggets and a drink...
and settled the SYF training committee application form and stuff..
and email-ed it to zhi guang..
and yes...
going to participate and help out in the SYFOC parade 2010...
and yup..
going for parade commander post again...
not going to elaborate on details..
so...
after tat..
went to sit at those public benches around terminal 2...
and at least...
can see sweetie work..and stuff...
yep..
after sweetie end work around 8pm...
fetch her and her fren..
and took mrt back..
and had zi char for my dinner...
which im qutie full after tat...XD...
plus todae i've eaten so much mac food..
lol..
yep..
chatted wif them till 11pm and home sweet home...
:)..yep..
so...
some updates on myself....
been not quite myself lately...
dunno why....
and yea...
sch has started....
many things are different alrdy....
still trying to cope wif alot of stuff...
sometimes i jus feel lyk giving up but yea..when i tot of sweetie and my frens and family..
all jus gave me strength to walk further again..
hmm...
many things to do...
gonna plan how to cope wif my busy schedule...
yep..
jus a random post...
so i'll end here...
sayonara ppl...
:)

each dae wif u...
nv fails to bring a smile to my face at the end of the dae...

When the sun shines bright for 4 hours of break..

2010-04-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

woah so todae...
10am lesson...
and yea...
after tat...
4 hrs of break!?
yea..
so went to pass sweetie my laptop coz she nid to use for lesson..
and after tat...
went to join my class in having lunch...
then we went borrow a bball again...
and which is me again..
haiz..
so not feeling lyk borrowing..
the feeling a bit guai guai when borrowing stuff frm CLS room...
nevertheless...
anyways...
had a game at the bball court..and still..
managed to hav accuracy over my 3 pointer shots...
yep...
after tat...
went to food court 5 and bought drinks and chilled there..
after tat,
went to T2 building for practical...
recrystallization of benzoic acid..
rofl..and throughout the dae...
we were lyk camwhoring...
lol go my facebook picture section..
u'll noe why...
haha here are two pics of my experiment..
the crystals of the benzoic acid..

yep...
and below..is the couple ring me and sweetie hav :)...

hee...:D

anyways...
after practical..
went to find sweetie at clubhouse..
and we went to hav dinner :)...
and yea..sweetie..
hope u feel better soon!!
recover soon!!!!!!!:D
yep..
after dinner...sent sweetie hm...
and went to meet up wif des they all..they had dinner at west coz cafe...
and yea..after tat..
des had a recall frm his SCDF division..
and he rushed back...yep..
while me jj,cindy and dj went to maac awhile..
i sorted out some stuff while my bro had his meal and after tat..
home sweet home :)..
yep..tats all for todae..
tmrw..lessons are dry..omgs...:(...
but nvm..
will persevere on for sweetie :)..
and my future :)..
yep...
alrights..shall post till here..
ciaos!!!!!

even if u are tired...
theres bound to be someone who can giv u the energy to move on..
and for me...
tat person's u sweetie :)...
ily...

Mondae!!

2010-04-26T23:57:00.003+08:00

alrights..
tis is the second week of sch..
and yep...
quite a slow start...
only...
3 hours of lesson todae...
yep..
so after tat...
went to pass sweetie my jacket..
and went to join my class for lunch...
had subway sandwich meal and an extra egg tart frm KFC...
filling indeed...
yep so...
after lunch...
went to borrow a Bball frm CLS students club room...
and went to the Bball court and play...
rofl...
i lao liao...
run here and there a little alrdy perspire and run out of energy...
yep..but still managed to score and win...
:)..been quite lucky on my three pointer shots...
anyways..
after tat...
went to return the ball and proceeded to foodcourt 5..
where we slacked over there...
and after tat nic,darius and jt left early...
leaving a few of us there...
so they were having a msn conversation..
using their laptops...
while i...
didn't bring..
so play hp games..
yep..
was waiting for sweetie's class to end...
and arnd 4pm...
went to meet up wif sweetie..
and went to JP for a walk...
and yea..
she bought a hair band...
and we chatted while walking the mall..
and yea...
one happy thing..
we bought a couple ring :D...
my early birthdae present..:)
yup..
really love it..:)..
hee evrydae oso wear it :)..
anyways..
so..had dinner at JP...
and after tat...
went collect our rings as we engraved each others names on it...
and yea..
sent sweetie home..
and home sweet home for myself too..
:)...
yep...
and..
tmrw...
morning CBIO CP6022...
1 hour...
after tat...
4 hr break...
piang eh...
do wad sia...
going complete my hw using the time ba...
must spend time wisely...
and yea...after tat at 3pm-6pm is I&OC practical...
yep..finally got practical...
woots...
so...
basically...
tats my mondae for ya...
yup..tats all folks...
ciaos!!
nights..

wif a little metal ring...
it loops our hearts tgt...

BBQ session..

2010-04-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

okae..so..as the title saes..
BBQ session...
yup its the usual few of us frm TSS NPCC unit..
and yea...
miss sweetie alot alot todae...
hope to be able to see her soon :)..
sweetie went out wif her family..
and yea..
went to wei lun's condo's place..
had the BBQ at the condo's BBQ pit..
and b4 bbq...
had to wait for the rain to stop..
so..
was playin pool in his house..
his house got pool table..
yep...
after tat..
went down..
jj,des and my bro started swimming but i didn't coz i wasn't in the mood...
and..
yea..terribly missing sweetie....
anyways...
not long after..
started the fire and stuff and we started bbq-ing...
yep..
Kelvin and zhen yao joined us soon after...
and Mrs Chow and Mr Chow came down and chat wif us a little too...
Mrs Chow's baby is so cute...:)..
anyways...
yea..tis time round we managed to clear the food...
and after tat..
packed up...
and went over to west coast park mac for awhile..
and i left soon after...
and home sweet home..
pics..will come soon i tink..
nid to get them frm des first...
and yea...
life's starting to get busy once again...
stress will once more be hugging me tightly...
so does tiredness...
but nvm...
as long as got sweetie to hug me once in a while..
its enuf to get me back on my feet and start chionging again...:)
and...tis week...
quite slack..
but when time table resume to normal..
i'll be busy..
yep...
so..
i'll post till here...
ciaos!!

hen xiang..
yi zhi...
pei zai ni shen bian..

last dae of the week...

2010-04-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

alrights its fridae..
yep so..
had lessons in the morning...
and...till aftenoon..
no NPCC todae...
so..
spent time wif my classmates chatting...
and after tat..
went out wif sweetie :)...
hmm went to vivo and walked around...
and also took some pics :)...
yup..
after tat,
home sweet home...
yup..and here are some pics..:)

yup..so..
post till here lar..time to catch some slp...
sayonara!!

two..is better than one..

2010-04-19T18:15:00.000+08:00

Mixed feelings...

My sundae :)..

2010-04-19T01:11:00.000+08:00

Alrights..
so..
tis is supposedly sundae post..
18 april..
so jus treat it as one..
i posted one on NPAP oso..its below tis post...
yep..do read it..got pics and vids...
so...
i continue bah...
woke up quite late todae..
and..
feeling sick..
having a fever...
tmrw maybe nid bao bing shang xue...
:P..
anyways...
met up wif sweetie during late afternoon..
and went to JP...
where she shopped for stationery using the popular vouchers...
yep..
also shopped around the place around...
b4 taking at bus back..
and sending sweetie hm..
after tat...
went to meet my bro..
to go play LAN...
yep..
but reached hm around 9.30pm..
yep..
promised sweetie tat i will be back by 10pm..
:)..
yep so after tat...
chatted wif sweetie..
and yea..posted on blog...
and going slp after posting...
nows 1 .15am...
so yea...
i'll finish up my post...and go slp lyk i promised :)..
nites world..
tmrw's first dae of sch...
nth much to do..
got practical...
yea...
:)..
going get my lab coat tmrw...
and...
oh ya..
sweetie...
dear giv a nice big hug to u and wish u gud nites...
rest well..
slp tight..
and to all others in the world...
rest well too!!
yep and hope i get well soon :)...
so..
CIAOS!!!

i mean evrything i sae...

National Police Annual Parade 2010..

2010-04-17T23:58:00.003+08:00

Okae..so..
as title saes...
NPAP todae..
so..in the late morning...
went to sch..
wif my bro..
to get tickets...
for NPAP...
and yep..after tat,
went hm at chatted wif sweetie for awhile b4 going bathe and stuff and meeting des they all...
yep..
after tat,
went to jj flat area carpark there..
where he drove me to pandan there,
to fetch des and teck cheong...
yup..
and soon,
we were on our way to jurong point to hav our dinner...
had dinner at crytal jade la mian xiao long bao restaurant..
ordered suan la mian...
my usual fav...
and also ate xiao long bao...:)..
nice...
yep..
after dinner,
walked around jp alittle..
and soon we were on our way to HTA...
reached there,
and JJ parked his car at the carpark behind the drill shed and the first thing we did was find TSS cadets...
yep..
saw them..
and they lyk pai seh dun wan take photo when des was taking photos of them...
yep,
after tat,
walked around HTA and saw many familiar faces...
and soon..
we had to be seated and wait for the parade to start...
after arnd 20 min of waiting..
the emcees started speaking and the PC marched out..
tis year,
its a HO...
and..why those who went for the Parade Commander tryout,
not even one got chosen...
i dun wan to sae why..
but yea..grats on him being PC anyways..
so...
standard procedure..
supporting contingents and flag bearer contingents march out,
followed by GOH entrance...
not as grand as last year..
but yea..
well done guys..
yep..
after tat...
had food at the reception corner...
and also went to the classrooms area to take pics wif cadets...
after tat,
went to west coast plaza to wait for dong jun...
and oso met up wif cindy...
and after tat...
went to cindy's house and i tried a game of monopoly deal..
its a monopoly card game..
and a phrase to describe it..
"guai lan.."
but..very fun oso..
yea..
and after arnd 15 min..
i left first...
and yea..
reached hm..
rest..
and chat wif sweetie...
and after tat...
wen to la la land...
:)..
yep..
after my long story..
i tink tis part ppl wan to see more of it,
which is pictures..
so yea..
without further ado..
scroll down pls :)..

*oh ya ps forgot to sae..for the first few pics of my hamster,
i played wif them for awhile b4 leaving hm...yea..letting them walk on my palm and stuff..*

My fat hamster...

Look at the fats..evrydae eat more than 10 nuts lea..

My skinny one..:)..now oso grow fat alittle..which is gud for him..
if not lyk pi bao gu...(direct translation to english-skin wrap bone XD)

Skinny one :)

Ticket for NPAP 2010

me in JJ's car..

Des and i in Fei cui la mian xiao long bao restaurant...

Xiao long bao!

Suan la mian i ordered..

Zha jiang mian tat des and jj ordered..

Teck cheong's dumpling soup noodle i tink?

Cadet Participants waiting at drill shed..

NPAP 2010 banner..

Cadet spectators..

The empty parade square where i haven seen for some time..

me and jj looking at the march in..

me and jj..

Audience and behind the pillar is the SPF band...

GOH..

GOH flag party..

GOH guys and girls..

Full parade pic 1..

Full parade pic 2..

The grand stand at night..

the parade grounds at nite..

nice eh?

even nicer..:)

Officers and cadets..

tis is the very big bee lyk thing i caught..
very irritating sound it makes wif its wings..
it gave birth to offsprings inside the container and it look rather -_-" wif all those small little nymph crawling inside but nevertheless i still set it free and inculding all the small ones...

Also,i took videos of the parade and the performances..enjoy!!:)

Video of march in of supporting and GOH contingents..

Video of March Pass of Contigents..

Video of Military band performance..

Video of song performance by an NPCC cadet or CI i forgot...

Anyways..
i posted these vids on youtube..
if u wan watch them on youtube..
yep...took these vids using my phone...
so..vid quality not very gud..

yup..
so...
anyways...
sweetie...
jus noe tat no matter wad..
i stand on ur side..:)...
love ya...

hmm alrites..
shld post till here now..
going slp...
bcoz promised someone to slp early..:)..
sayonara!!
nites world...

different words..
hav different impact..
on different ppl..

A wonderful dae!! :)

2010-04-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

Ello evryone!!
alrites..
todae...
first..i tok bout me going to clementi there..
to CTSS to pass my NPCC collar lapel to wei xiong..
after that..went to find Des,JJ,Jy and cindy to hav sakae buffet dinner...
yep...
ate alot during the buffet...
despite my heavy lunch...
and after tat...went to find sweetie after her speech dae...
went to suntec where she had dinner at astons...
and after dinner..
walked around...
and decided to try out the song and message dedication at the fountain of wealth..
yep..sweetie and i both dedicate a msg to each other..
but only hers was shown..
mine was not shown coz due to time constrain..
yep..
but at least the song i dedicated worked!!
hope u lyk it sweetie :)
after tat..walked around..
and decided to take neo print pic :)...
lol when was the last time i took it?
3 years ago..ROFL..
so yup..pic below..
tats it :)..

Pics of me and sweetie :)...

yep yep..
so..during the editing of pics..
was a bit noob...
coz...
long time nv use..
can sae abit clean forget how to use..
coz in the past i take..
is oso pay money nia..
editing is ppl do de..XD
yep so after tat...
took bus and sent sweetie home...
and me myself same after tat :)...
hmm sweetie..
really thks..for being wif me..
thru thick and thin....
really..if not for u...
i wont be able to do alot of things..
i wouldn't hav realised and understood alot of things...
and..
in future..
we may not hav alot of time for each other...
but..
i'll try my best to find time..
even if its jus one hour to be wif u..
i'll be contented ler...
i love u...
and..
yup below's the video of the msg sweetie wrote for me..:)

Thks sweetie for ur dedication!!<3

yep..
really enjoyed the times i spent wif u sweetie...
and...also..
enjyoed the dinner wif DJCJK as well..
hmm..tmrw...
going NPAP 2010...
my bro's in it...
yep...
shall see him standing proudly in the parade...
:)...
yep..tink i blog till here..
sayonara!!
nites world!!
and nites sweetie!!

each step i take in my life...
i get my energy frm u..
-Ks to sweetie

SP CLS Orientation Dae..

2010-04-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

alrights...
todae's SP orientation dae...
so..
met up wif sweetie in the afternoon..
and went to SP..
after registration and stuff,
we were ushered into the auditorium...
where we listened to principal's speech,
intro to tutors and stuff..
yea..same old admin stuff..
and oso watched a few videos...
bout SP..
and performance by a singer and a beat boxer...
and oso cheer leading team..
and..a video made by students regarding do's and dont's for flag dae...
it was hilarious...XD
so yup..after tat,
went to our classrooms to meet our tutors..
and went thru the systems and stuff,
and oso gotten freshman orientation package and stuff,
and a tee for flag dae...
lol i've gotten an L size tee..
which is lyk..damn big...
but well..
smaller sizes priority to gurls..
so nvm...
anyways..
after tat...
met up wif sweetie again..
and..
went to moberly buidling coz i wanted to buy an SP tee...
but well..
kinda..
out of stock wif the size i want..
so nvm..
went for dinner wif sweetie...
and had a nice chat wif her after tat...
and home sweet home...:)..
hmm...
tmrw,
going to study wif sweetie...
yup..stay tuned..
:)..
anyways..going slp liaos..
ciaos!

a fresh new environment...
a fresh new beginning...

These 2 daes..

2010-04-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

well so..as the title saes..

i'll be blogging bout these two dae..
kae..so...
ytd,10 april..went for Area meeting...
and after tat...
went to coffeebean to discuss bout campfire and stuff..
and oso some unit stuff...
after tat...
went hm...
and looked at the proposals and stuff..
going to get the soft copy soon...
anyways..
after tat..
my bro and i went fishing...
hmm my bro caught a small fish..
but it kinda got one chunk of flesh bitten off by smth big..
well..
no luck means no luck..
so..
ended our dae wif no catch...
and home swt home..

now..
For 11 april:
went out wif sweetie todae..
yup..shopped around...
and yup..
sry sweetie...
cheeries okie?:)
*pull my ears*

alrites..so now..
picture time...
not much tho...
but do enjoy..

Kae,took tis picture at choa chu kang graveyard..
the morning sky's so beautiful..

The sunrise...
didn't wan to aim lower coz its all the tombstones..

sandwich frm a new sandwich cafe at West Coast Plaza 3rd floor...yup its nice...

during the discussion at coffee bean..

My iced double choc..

The proposals and stuff..

My fishing gears..hmm i noe very messy...

My bro wif my lightstick..

the dead small fish is in the pic..

so anyways..
tmrw..
going start sch liaos...
orientation...
hmm...
i've lyk..
not much of a mood for it...
but yea...
its compulsory...
and..yea..once again..
sry sweetie...
cheeries..:)...
and...
these few daes...
very eventful...
hmm..im...
not tired...
but..i jus...wan things the way it was b4..
anyways...
msn nowadaes...
theres stupid contacts adding u..and saeing stupid stuff...
where i got so pissed and i blocked,report abuse and delete...
and to someone...
wo hen ai wo de nu peng you..
pls...
keep ur comments to urself...
and i hav nth to do wif u guys anymore..

and lastly..b4 i end...
sweetie,huggies...

If human dun err...
they will nv be able to do the right thing..
and..sweetie...
u really made me realise alot of stuff...
really...
i sincerely apologise..
ily...

Recent stuffs...

2010-04-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

alrights..
let me update on some recent stuffs ba..
hmm went for laptop config ytd...
yea..
really thks sweetie...
for waiting for me for so long....
ni zui hao ler...
and yup..gotten all the softwares and stuff i nid for my com...
woke up at 1.30pm liddat todae...
seriously...
the 3 alarms i set...
none can wake me up....
anyways...
stayed at hm the whole dae....
was jus using the com..
and missing sweetie...
yup....
hmm...i've added games to my laptop too...
classic Counter Strike....
and...
oso WarCraft...
but..haven played them yet...
jus gonna leave them there so tat in future got free time can play...
well..
todae..
didn't go for Achiever's dae...
nor SPF badge presentation ceremony...
jus stayed at hm all the way....
school's gonna start real soon...
going do some science and math topics revision wif sweetie...
:)..
yep..
if not poly life sure hard to adapt..XD
anyways..
my blog darn long dun hav pics ler..
shall post some pics...
enjoy :)..

kae i lyk tis pic alot..dunno why..
i lyk the representation of contradiction in it..

Briefing Dae for CLS FO camp

My Bro's 14th Birthdae..:)

Sec 3 (NCOs to be..)

few of my squadmates..:)

NE run..lol all NS men except me..XD

Sweetie's Birthdae celebration wif her NP frens..:)

Group shot 2..:)

Groupshot 3..:)

Haha Surprise birthdae cake for sweetie :)..

Sweetie's Birthdae celebration wif BRAVO peepos :)

Camwhore..XD

At Igloo(dunno how to speel the name but its a yoghurt shop at vivo)..

Group shot..:)

Wah..my unglam pic..in CLS FO camp..XD

MAD HATTERS!!:)

Doing our group cheer :)

lol okae frm here...
short story...
due to the station games...
we are...
drenched in..
Flour,Egg,Water,Mud,Detergent..
and oso..dranked a mashed up mixture drink of food frm mcdonalds..
lol piang eh..
still took quite a gulp frm it sumore..
but still okae..
no stomachache..XD
anyways..in tis pic we are singing songs and stuff..

Caterpillar walk wif OLD STAR..

Meal time :)

Lol acting cute..XD

MAD HATTERS!

Pri Sch Pic...epic man...XD

alrights..yep...
tmrw's area STC meeting wif other CIs and Officers at clementi town sec...
gonna meet des and gang at Cityvibe at 9am for breakfast..
:)..
well..shall post till here :)..

ciaos!!

Fate..
is in my own hands...